contact post for Elizabeth

[unfearing]

I'LL MAKE THIS FANCY LATER.

"Hello! You've reached the voicemail of Elizabeth Bishop! I'm so sorry I've missed your call, but if you leave a message I promise to get back to you as soon as possible! Or even if you don't leave a message, actually. I do like messages though."

Feel free to also send text messages, e-mails, direct calls, whatever here. Just notate what medium you're using in the subject line.

and whatever I'm 100% out of effort now sob.

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[unfearing]

Banagher...

I'm sorry. You're absolutely right, of course. I know I'm not particularly qualified to be on the field like that, but I just...

I couldn't bear the thought of Casval going out there without support. Moral support, you know? He seemed so grimly determined, and I may be a little naive but even I know that seldom ends well.

I guess I don't really know what to say, except that I'm deeply sorry for any grief I've caused you over this.

[argents]

That's not it. I don't want you to be sorry for me. It's not my place to ask you for that.

[ God he doesn't even know what his place is anymore but everything just keeps barreling past any filters a smarter him would have had. If he was the type he'd shift blame to no sleep, an echo, a bloody kitchen floor...

But he's not. ]

None of us are really qualified for any of this. How can we be? I know we can't sit and do nothing, not when people have been hurt. Killed. When we find things or people to believe in, to make this seem less scary. But if we keep going like this, we'll burn out... we're capable of more than blindly striking out at the things we don't understand, aren't we? Out of pride, or worse. More than just backing ourselves into a corner like animals. I believed that, when I first met you.

I know you can do more. Both of you.

[ That's why. He needs her and Casval to stay safe. ]

[unfearing]

[ It takes Elizabeth a long time to respond, simply letting Banagher's words sink in. She feels stunned, as though he's waking her up from a daze. Honestly... What on earth has she been doing? She set out with the notion that were risks that she would have to take in order to push them all forward, but it seems she's all but lost her way. The risks she's been taking with herself-- They've been truly encroaching on simple reckless endangerment. It was just so easy to get swept up in all this, and... ]

I don't know how I let myself get so far from where I started. You're right, Banagher. About everything. I'll be more careful with myself. I'm no use to anyone compromised or dead.

Thank you so much for taking the time to reach out to me.

[argents]

[ ...Now he's the one feeling guilty. Shaken up, warm all over, staring at his phone clutched white-knuckled in his hands like he doesn't even know what to do with it anymore. Grateful. ]

I'm just glad you're okay.

[unfearing]

I'm very lucky to have someone like you watching out for me. You're a good person, Banagher. The world so sorely needs more young men like you.

[argents]

No. Anyone would think like this.